Oh friends. I have so many blog posts written up and ready to be posted by the timing doesn’t feel right. My heart is somber right now and it would feel false to me to clammer on about a delicious fish dish I’ve made, to show you what I’ve been sewing/crafting, or to show you how we shaved Jude’s hair into a mohawk. 2010 is proving to be an extraordinarily difficult year for me and my family. Between joblessness, first time parenting, moving, small disappointments, depressions, changing churches and the regular stresses of daily life, our previously stable world has been flipped upside down. I am afraid that we believed that we were exceptions to the rules in life and that the struggles of marriage would not affect us. We have since learned otherwise and thankfully, instead of running away from everything, we have struggled through it and thus grown as a couple. Turns out, no one is an exception to the rules. We all struggle. I am grateful that my husband is my best friend and that we are committed to working through the difficult times in life together. It is good to have a partner to walk through this chaos that life throws at us. I love him.
Tomorrow is the anniversary of the day that we started dating. 10 years we have been together and we have been through a lot. Many celebrations and many mournings. I am thankful for each day of those ten years, especially the hard days. Those are what have made us who we are and a stronger couple. I’m learning that there is a reason for the pain that we go through as a couple and individually. It is a difficult lesson.
We are heading back to Dallas tonight to spend some time remembering Nana as a family. I think it will do my heart good to remember all of the good times we had with her. To cry and laugh as a family. I need to celebrate her life. I’m hoping that the melancholy that has settled in my household will begin to lift once we return. Until then, you may not hear much from me. If you are of the praying persuasion, I covet your prayers for healing. God hears them all.
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Oh Beth, I truly am sorry. I can relate on almost all fronts and sympathize with you. I’m definitely of the praying persuasion
and would be happy to pray for you. Keep pressing on!
beth, i am so sorry. i definitely have struggled in almost all of those areas and have been thankful, in the end, for the hard times. its just so hard when you are dealing with it. we are definitely dealing with some hard times over here, and i know that God has a plan, guides and leads us, and is there. i pray that you will feel that more so than ever.
I am so thankful you are my best friend. I got kinda teared up as I read this here at work (the fact that I can say “here at work” is certainly an answer to prayer amidst this time).
My prayer is that we continue loving each other well and that God would grow me as a husband and allow me to better encourage you, lead you and love you…and Jude.
Lord, i do ask for healing in the Carroll/Larkin family. i ask that You would lift the faces of the downcast, and give them the light of Your countenance. That sounds really old, but Lord, smile on them and let them see it, please. You are good. Please show them Your goodness in many different ways (not just the hard ones
). Holy Spirit, please comfort them. Bind up the broken hearted.
Praying this morning for you and your family. “All things are possible through him.”
Mike
We will be praying for your family. We have also faced a very trying year – we have had three funerals (two grandfathers)this year, and recently received another phone call saying that we may be facing another sooner than we were hoping.
And it hasn’t just been physical death – there has been a lot of death in other ways that has been difficult. I’m praying that God carries us through all of these storms, and that we come out stronger and softer in the end.
I am so sorry for your loss, and so very moved by your words. Take care, from the inside out, and have a safe trip.
Praying for you and your family. We’ve been going through some pretty heartbreaking times. So thankful that we serve a god who loves and cares for us and is holding us. Been learning a lot about ourselves (individually and as a couple). Go through these time with your heart and mind wide open. Hard times can help us grow closer is we let them. Praying for you! Stay strong and close to jesus!
My dearest Beth, I can totally relate. We have been thand recuping from it has been tough…my self esteem and my doubts about having a full time profession and being a Mom have been so hard to overcome. My partner in crime, my hubby and I have been through too much these past 6 months and still are trying to recup from it. It definitely has made us stronger as a couple but we have had our rough times. It is hard and I pray for you and your family. You are such a strong woman and a great mother and wife, I admire you dear I really do. You have been my inspiration in many levels and I really thank you for all that you have helped me with. You probably don’t even imagine how reading your blog has helped me. I send you a huge hug my dear and hope you feel better. Your body and mind needs to rest and getting sick is just a sign that you need a small break for you, just a minute to breath. Please take care and remember we are here for anything you need.
Beth,
I am so sorry to hear about your Nana. My heart is breaking as I read your post, and I know how you feel through all of these struggles. I am praying for you and your family, and I pray that as you go through these struggles you see God’s greater purpose.
Love you girl,
Cynthia