I mentioned it in passing a few weeks ago when I was putting forth my struggle about the thought of being an only child family.
Our adventure. It’s right on the brink now.
I am excited and terrified about it and somehow, that makes me feel like it is the right decision. If it isn’t scary, it isn’t a risk. And if it isn’t a risk, the gains can’t be very big. And we are hoping for eternal gains with this risk.
We are beginning to write a story of a church plant. We have been in discussion with some of our close friends about this for years now. I can’t even believe that it has been so many YEARS since this conversation begun. And here we are, getting ready to sell our home (yep, again) to move into the heart of the city. If you know me, you know I am thrilled about the location. I love the city. I love the people there and the way they think. I love the food. I love the houses. I love the trees. I love the messiness of the poor intermingled with the wealthy. Life has been lived in the city and there is history that you can breath and feel as you move through the space. My heart already lives there. I. Can’t. Wait.
And I am also terrified. The church that we yearn for is one with intense community, much like you would find in a family. And as an extreme introvert, community is scary for me. I like the written word (can’t you see?) but I am not eloquent in person. My mind blanks when I am asked to speak on my toes, I don’t speak up in group settings, I take days to process information and come to conclusions. But somehow, I know that this is what I am supposed to do. My sad little introverted self is supposed to lay down my fears for this church.
We don’t want to be just another church – we want to show that God is beyond the American box of church. We want to reexamine traditions and serve our community in a revolutionary way. You have heard me speak of a desire to bring heaven to earth and that is what we long for. We want to bring heaven to central Austin. We want to be Jesus to those that have not encountered him. We want to show Jesus to those that have been deeply hurt by past church encounters. We want to be Jesus to everyone – no exceptions. And I know that means we are going to be uncomfortable. My heart trembles at the thought of giving up my comforts, of sacrificing things that I hold dear but I know we will be called to this. And more. I pray that I will grow to embrace this.
We have begun writing our story and it’s going to be an adventure.